actually autistic
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Mindfulness in the Moment
One day you’re young, playful, curious, believing the world 🌎 will always feel this wide… And then, quietly, it starts to shrink.Not all at once, but in the small, ordinary moments that slip through your fingers. And you don’t get a warning. Just a series of lasts: The last time you let yourself act like… Continue reading
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A Memory That Felt Like Dream
I stumbled upon this piece I wrote a year ago and wanted to share. Continue reading
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The Unexpected Ways Neurodivergence Shows Up
Here’s something I never thought I would admit publicly… Once I told a therapist something I had thought about my entire life. You could say I was secretly obsessed. I devoured books on the subjects, spent a fair amount of time in class and home daydreaming about it, and talking about it with the people… Continue reading
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Let Me Stim
These are some of my saviors. My hero’s. My MVPs. The ones that always have my back when I need it. Fidgets. Not just toys. Not just for kids. For anyone who doesn’t know…a “fidget” can be anything from a squishy stress toy, to a spinner, slime or putty, etc. Even a rock in your… Continue reading
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My Emotional Support Sweet Potato (ESSP)
Anyone else have an emotional support sweet potato (ESSP)? This is my current victim. This is my seventh or eighth ESSP. In a row. That I haven’t eaten. Each one sits on my counter, slowly growing roots and judgment, until enough time has passed that I now believe this potato to be inedible. Is it? … Continue reading
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Kites, Dogs, and Puppets: Living in this Brain
Kites, Dogs, and Puppets: Living in This Brain You know what’s really hard about having a neurodivergent brain? A trauma-riddled brain? A dysregulated brain? That I don’t get to choose. I am merely a puppet on a stick. A leashed dog. Not in control, but going with it. What will it be today? A new… Continue reading